From London With Love

Hey Honeys,
I've been thinking about contributing to our little diary for a few days now and as always someone managed to beat me to it. In this case Divorcee. On the subject of your couple life all I would really want to say is that you should let it all run its own course. As much as you worry you can't control him or life, so just relax, enjoy the ride and hope for the best. I know this is not the most amazing advice ever, but I think it's worth a try. Plus I think that what is really contributing to these feelings in a large way is boredom. And having been in the same position for more than 2 months I understand what it starts doing to your head. Get active like you were thinking and I'm almost 100% sure that things will fall in place!

Now on the subject of my life in "sunny" London...
As you all know I've been here properly since the beginning of September. In this time I've probably had the most roller-coaster time ever in terms of my emotional and physical state. I'm still officially jobless, but currently doing part-time work for the "big and magnificent" Harrods. More specifically their marketing department. Also probably going to do some actual sales assistant work for them few days a week. Continuing to look for an actual full time position, but feeling a bit less depressed than before as I actually do something during my days. :)

Now moving on to much more interesting subjects i.e. my personal and social life.
I am still living at Ns place, which is getting a bit strange. He likes having me around but in effect I feel like he is looking for something more serious with me than I would ever want. I'm sooooo thankful to him for taking me in and everything, but I just don't see him as anything else than a great friend. Obviously it doesn't help that we tend to share a bed quite a lot, but I am a single girl and I have my needs... ;)
I think that I wouldn't actually be worried about N as much as I am, if he wasn't showing classic jealous boyfriend signs. The most recent being that we had a party a few weeks back and I met one of his friends, who I had an instant connection with (I'll tell you more about that in the next paragraph) and so spent half the night talking with. The guy's is an actual full time artist so from here on I'll refer to him as The Painter. Anyway so The Painter asked me out and I chose not to say this to N, but of course he found out somehow and was slightly upset with me. He said that he was disappointed in me because I didn't tell him. Whatever I did my best to patch things up, although I still believe that he had no business in knowing who I go out with. In the end he finally calmed down when I said that I'm not really interested in seeing The Painter any longer.

So now more about The Painter. He was obviously older, but not in his 40 yet. He was also very sweet and although when we went to Tate Britain I felt like I was on a date with a professor, I still quite liked him. So anyway the first date we went out on lasted for like 10 hours, cause we ended up going for dinner and drinks and etc. Finally at the end of the night I found out that I had kissed him at the party. This shocked me as I was really drunk that night and had no recollection of that. How typical! So after I finally managed to get over that shock he asked me to come to dinner at his place. BTW he lives in like zone 500 and I actually had to take a train there (first signs of this never working out). Nonetheless I went there and we had a lovely dinner together. Obviously I assumed that when a guy asks a girl to come over he want's to get biblical in some way or another. Well what happened was that we were kissing on the bed and all of a sudden he pulls away and tells me that he needs to tell me something. Not surprisingly this was slightly worrying, but nothing could have prepared me for what he was going to say, which was (wait for it) that he hasn't had sex in a while. Clarifying a while- IN 10 YEARS. I almost fell of the bed!!! I did try to reassure him that it was fine, but then he turned all girly on me saying that he wants to talk to me to feel more comfortable. I went with it, although in the end I wish I didn't as I didn't get any sleep all night because we had to talk and finally in the morning when we still hadn't had sex and he started making strange remarks about our future, I told him straight up that I'm not looking for a serious relationship. You should have seen his face. I swear I could actually see tears in the corner of his eyes. I finally managed to make my escape a few hours later after we walked around the park for an hour- him holding my hand (I felt there was a limit to how cruel I could be). So that much for dating artistic loner types!

As much as some of my dating experiences have been slightly strange lately there is also light at the end of the tunnel as I have actually met someone who I really like and who my newly married blond friend S calls boyfriend material. His name is D, he's French (I know very strange as I said I'd never date one) and actually in his late 20's (working in banking). Met him outside a nightclub with S on a girly night out. Actually S was shamelessly flirting with D's friend H and we were just standing around freezing. Later on I went as a buffer to a dinner with S and H and guess what his friend D ended up joining us. I had long decided that he didn't really fancy me and as it turned out he thought the same about me. Another week later and he actually got my number from S and called me up. All was going well except that he is on holiday in Australia for another 2 weeks, so whatever potential there is might disappear by the time he is back. We'll see! At least for now I'm feeling pretty happy!!! :)

Ok girlies I'm sure I have more stuff to tell you, but I'm sick of typing. Am going over to SE1 tonight to see Divorcee. Hopefully we won't get too carried away as I have work tomorrow. On the other hand you only live once!
I miss all of you terribly! London is not the same with you guys! Love ya!!!!!!

bam bam

PS! Completely forgot to tell you this... Went out with a French movie producer friend of mine on Halloween. We ended up going to this new club Vendome and I met on of his friends an actress called Vivienne. Talked to her for a while and found out that she is dating Guy Richie for the last 2 months. Also supposed reason for the Guy and Madge divorce is that Madge has a lover in New York for like the past year. Also this supposed lover is a girl! Lol

-Sorry for the typos! Really not feeling like rereading all of this!-